When Surroundings define Who Am I?

We are so much defined by our surroundings than we think. The question ” Who am I ?” assumes, you take into consideration the environment you grew up. I am not taking about the people and their behavior. Of course they are a part of that too. But I am more concerned about the actual surroundings like trees, places, houses and buildings the aesthetics part. So much of our memories are associated with them. Those memories, like the kind of feelings we get when we think of something is directly proportional to these surroundings.

Let me tell you a story

There were 2 big tamarind trees in the backyard of my friends home in his village. He used to play under the shadows of the trees and on the trees when he was a kid.  Somehow his memories are associated with the green color of trees, the blue sky over it, animals near to the trees. All combined will produce some kind of aesthetic experience and added to the memories.

Unfortunately those trees were chopped down. Now that aesthetic experience will exist only in the memory of my friend. It is unique and no will experience the same surroundings the way he experienced it. The surroundings were as part of him as the people are. He cannot define who he is without them. With his death his aesthetic experience will be lost forever from history. The next generation will experience different aesthetic experiences with the same surroundings. The surroundings do change with time, so our memories associated with them.

Finally in defining Who I am, the surroundings are as inseparable as people and their behaviors. They play a role a shaping our emotions and feelings and in turn a memory of them.

Rumblings 13.04.2017

Everyone is Alone
Everyone lives in their own world,
that crazy, comfort and cozy place.
Ever felt fear coming out of that cushion,
moving into that uncertain and ambiguous world.
and Oh! people would expect you to be something
little they know of the inner world of the person.
We so much expect and exert certainty on the world,
we forget that this world is based on Entropy.

Oh you, Universe, of all the principles why did you choose
Entropy. Why do you like chaos, destruction, disorder
so much??

Behold you humans!! said the Universe,
have Patience, one day you would realize that because
of Entropy you are what you are.. and behind us it
mocked Whether you would like it or not?

Rumblings 09.04.2017

Once, there was this beautiful world,
and it started to crumble, piece by piece
it slowly vanished into the vastness of time.
No memory of it existed in the minds of people or lore, only in the
memory of time it existed. This place was dear to time, for
It’s like all the beauty & wonderful things of the universe existed
in that place at that time. Yet forgotten by the lore.
Such is the nature of time. It’s always watches over us, wondering
why are we working so hard at something only to be
destroyed by it. For time could never understand the inner
turmoil of men, he is only an active observer, Never an active
participant.

Rumblings 16.02.17

What if you could look at the world through the lens of “caring”, not the helping, sympathizing, pitying kind of view. Instead, through the lens of ‘What do you care about most?’

 

We tend to view the world mostly through data(measurement), statistics and trying at best to understand the reality ignoring taste, experience, emotions. Ex. US Elections most thought Hilary  Clinton would win based on data, but the other thing has happened.

 

The other way of looking at the world & which is a famed one(most aspire to) is through Reality, seeing ‘ things as they are ‘.
But what if it is not the most useful way to look at the world ?
If we look at the world through reality, then competition, winners, losers, depression etc.. all kinds of quantifiable things come into play, for reality focuses more on winning, money etc.., which for most feels like a burden/ depressive look at the world.

 

Instead learning to care about things, objects that interest us makes life easy, for we needn’t understand the complex reality for we only care about that which interests us, we give attention to those things or people we care about, we take action on things we care about. Sort of the author quotes ‘being home in the world’ This is not your “I don’t give a shit” thing, it’s being deeply involved. This kind of involvement creates effectiveness. Caring is being so much involved. It’s what you call Buber’s Ich-Du – a kind of totally pure relationship devoid of any expectations, explanations, or anxieties. When we care about something so deeply everything falls away including your own ego.

 

There are many by products for this kind of view, such as shifting from finite(goal, end) game to infinite(being playful matters instead of results) game. The point is we try to understand the world better by slowing a bit, and working towards increasing our relationships with world by caring about it.